NO NEED PITY

BAKE!

2007-09-23T12:25:00.001+08:00

I ACTUALLY BAKE SOMETHIN...
I BAKE A CAKE!!!!
A DELICIOUS CHOCALATE CAKE!
YUMYUM!
I WAS BORED SO I MADE CAKE FOR MY FASTING FRENS....
GAVE THEM SOME OF IT....
N ITS ACTUALLY NICE...-I THINK]

I PLACE M&MS ON IT....
N ITS WRITTEN SMILE...N A HAPPIE FACE ON TOP OF IT.....

I LOVE TO BAKE....
MADE MUFFINS,BROWNIES N A CAKE SO FAR....
I COULD OPEN A BAKERY SHOP....hmmm...
N GET DIABETES TOO....
hahaha.....juz kiddin

news

2007-09-20T14:55:00.000+08:00

NEWS!

I JUZ CUT MY HAIR N I LOOK LIKE A FREAKIN BOY! N THERE IS ONLI ONE WORD 2 SAY IT....
WEIRD!! WEIRD!! WEIRD!!

N E DENTIST CHECK MY TEETH N SAID TAT I NEED 2 WEAR BRACES...ONE WORD 2 SAY IT...
FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!

I PLAN TO COLOUR IT YELLOW N GREEN LIKE E BRAZIL COLOUR....HAHA..ONE WORD....
FREAKO! FREAKO! FREAKO! FREAKO! FREAKO!

SO TATS IT I GUESS...
TUNE IN TO MY BLOG...
FOR MORE CRAZY NEWS 2 COME!

THERE IS SOMETHIN I WISH THINGS WOULD BE WRONG
BUT I DIDN TOUGHT U WOULD LEAVE ME THERE
ALONE IN DARK
ALONE IN E SIGHT OF GOD
HELP ME
KILL ME
LOVE ME
IS ALL I COULD SAY
UNTIL U RESCUE ME ONE DAY...

sigh

2007-09-19T15:20:00.000+08:00

quite a long time i did no update..huh?
nothin much happening...
lost of friends....new friends..
made mistakes..
go crazy...
have 2 cope a life...HARDER
exams are comin...

TERRIBLE YET WEIRD

2007-08-08T21:10:00.000+08:00

tdy, there was suppose to be a parade.....

we have to come to school early....so all e uniformed group members were gettin ready n gettin their own positions....
it started n suddenly..
I GOT DIZZY N BLACKOUT!
E NEXT THING I NOE IS TAT SOMEBODY WAS TRYING TO CARRY ME....
i was brought to general office
but then a gurl fainted in NPCC n got cut....so she have to do stitches
SCARY!
but i got ok....n everyone started to ask me if i'm ok
IT WAS SWEET
but e blackout was nt fun....to me
some of e ppl got sick....
then, e celebration was super duper fun

so we left school at 10+
the dewi n i meet andrea,wei han n eileen.
we went to tiong bahru plaza to tiong bahru park to bukit merah library
we walk to places most of it
andrea kept complainin that its tired to walk
HAHAHAHAHEHEHHE!
here are e pics:

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something i thought it would never happen

2007-07-30T15:07:00.000+08:00

I PIERCE MY EAR!!!!!! WHOOO!!!!!
I PIERCE AT MY EAR CURVE THERE!!!!!!!!! AT TIONG BAHRU!!!!!
ME,LYNETTE N DEWI WAS PLANNING IT SINCE E STARTING OF E WEEK....ACTUALLY LAST WEEK....
THE THREE OF US N ANDREA,NADHIRA,WEI HAN,ZAHIRAH,EILEEN,MEIFI N NURUL....went there....

WE ATE AT BURGER KING...N MEIFI ASKED ME BOUT MY SCAR ON E LEG...N I WAS SHOWING SOME MOVES THAT I RIDE A MOTORCYCLE THEN I FELL....WE ALL LAUGH HYSTERICALLY....IT WAS SOOOO FUN....E MOST FUNNIEST MOMENT...HAHAHA...MUAHAHA

IT WAS DAMN FUN...WE TOOK NEOPRINT N LYNETTE WENT TO PIERCE FIRST....I WAS SO DAMN SCARED BOUT IT...BUT THEY WERE TRYING TO CALM ME....

LYNETTE'S RIGHT EAR WAS RED...N I WAS STARTED TO WORRY...CAUSE I HATE A GUY TOUCHING MY EAR OR ANY PARTS OF MY BODY...sigh...UNLESS I NOE E GUY

I'M WEIRD...:[]

THEN,ZAHIRAH,NURUL N NADHIRA WENT HOME BEFORE WE EVEN TOOK E NEOPRINT....HEHE

AFTER A WHILE I WENT TO THE PIERCING SHOP WIF DEWI...I WAS ALL SCARED....E OTHERS CAME TO THE SHOP SUDDENLY.....FINALLY I DECIDED TO TRY IT
I HAD TO HOLD DEWI'S N WEI HAN'S HAND...TO PREVENT FROM FEELING E PAIN....WHILE E GUY WAS TRYING TO PIERCE ME EAR....

STUBBORN SHIQIN

IT WAS SUPER DUPER PAIN.....

N I CANNOT SLEEP IN MY FAVOURITE POSITION...N E PIERCING THINGY HAPPENS ON SATURDAY
SO MOSTLY E PAIN STARTED TO REDUCE ALREADY...

BUT DEWI WENT TO PIERCE HER LIPS WIF HER MUM N SISTER AFTER WE ALL WENT HOME.....
AT E SAME PLACE WHICH LYNETTE N I PIERCE THAT IS 'THINK TANK'....

e last thing i've ever wrote

2007-07-25T15:06:00.000+08:00

e first post after weeks...

i dunno wat to write....but i'm just feeling great

let e fun begins....

2007-06-25T19:06:00.000+08:00

i went out wif dewi,andrea,meifi,wei han n eileen to celebrate my birthday....it was so fun but wei han n eileen have to go home early....cause they are not allowed to go home late....so....its just e four of us....we went to vivo.....took alot of stupid but crazy pics....

BUT ONE OF E PICS WE TOOK IS HAUNTED!!!!!!!!!!!SO SCARY!!!!!

super duper memories

2007-05-24T18:55:00.000+08:00

went to KING ALBERT PARK'S MCDONALDS.....WHOO....WHEE....HAD LOTS OF FUN WIF RAJINDER N DEWI.....MY CLOSE FRENS....

HERE ARE SOME PICS TAKEN....

I WAS BORN TO HATE YOU

A KISS TO MY BF...OUW...HE IS BLUSHING...HEHEH

MY PIC WIF HIM

RAJINDER IS TRYIN TO STYLE DEWI'S HAIR...MUAHAHAHA

EVERYONE IS FINALLY TIRED OF LAUGHING

DEWI SLEEPING....A CANDID SHOT...
:)

long time....

2007-05-23T19:50:00.000+08:00

it has been a long time tat i did not update this blog...
i have been so sock these days...
caused by the confusion in my life n stresses

change of private diary blog:
nuttieslove.livejournal.com

READ IT IF U WANT TO BUT DON BE SO EMO BOUT IT CAUSE I DON NEED UR PITY

life have been so hard these days.....SIGH..
wish it could be more easier....
but i think that it is a lesson to learn bout frens and people

A FRIEND OF MINE SAYS;
'PEOPLE CHANGE'

it is now happened to me for my own sake to live my life....things has been turning upside down....no mood to talk to my friends..what am i even thinkin to my bad habit again...ITS CRAZY....gtg

-gumGUM- COULD BE E END OF ME IN UR LIFE

fun n funniest

2007-05-12T13:29:00.000+08:00

EXAMS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER PEOPLE, ITS TIME TO PARTY
WHOO WHEE

NO MORE PAIN IN THE ASSES PAPERS.....

GONNA CELEBRATE ALL DAY.....SLACKING IN MYSELF IS GOIN TO START

I'M OFFICIALLY FREE :)

rags to riches

2007-05-12T11:50:00.000+08:00

LAST SUNDAY:

went to EARLE SWENSEN'S AT VIVO....whoo...whee....the place is so DAMN NICE N HIGH CLASS....the manager has a bad attitude...trying to show his fucking face to my family....but we all enjoy ourselves....e ice cream is damn nice....COOKIE SUMMIT....e glass is damn tall so when i eat i have to hold it....i shared CHICKEN BAKED RICE....with my sis cause its for two if we order one....the service given to us by the manager are truly not appreciated.....

shiny stars:

service: ***
food: cookie summit-*****+ chicken baked rice-****
view: *******+

note: (: DON EVER SHOW UR FUCKING FACE TO ME :)

end of my hope

2007-05-05T19:09:00.000+08:00

have been more stress these days....

mum have been sick these few days.....her condition seems to be getting worst....what could i possibly do...but pray 4 her health and help out with chores...she has been really stressing out n busy since my cousin's family came from malaysia...wish that things could get more better....although she cares more bout my elder sister n brother more...i know that she loves me....she abandoned me...n always blame me for what i do...but i think we got more closer with each other today.....this happiness will not be long cause she has accused me of stealing her money....I DID NOT DO IT....but she does not believe me....sometimes i felt tat i may not be her real daughter....but a child that was found...MAYB I'M WRONG

i have always been so moody in school but my friends have been there for me to cheer me up....i have lost friends[danger dan n dagna]cause of my temper which i do not want it to happen...i have gotten my temper against me....cause of some family matters....

what i got now....doesn't meant that i will have it in the future....i may have many friends....i may lose some of them in the end....

everything is wrong

2007-05-02T18:12:00.000+08:00

start of normal school days....
only that we have to revise more before our exams paper starts again.....n I'M SEATING IN THE FRONT ROW N EXACTLY NEAR THE TEACHER'S TABLE.....OMG...the worst ever....NO MORE SLACKING IN CLASS....NO MORE FREEDOM....seems like the world is turning the wrong way.....

personal.....what has happen to me?????!!!!!!!!
everything is all wrong.....I NEED A NEW LIFE INSIDE ME....A NEW START....unwanted things kept happening to me.....bad luck in love....but more friends in life.new found friend has been futher away n its a sin not to talk to each other....

a way to release my stress is to vandalise my table....noe tat its wrong but wat could i do...other than writing jiwang2...ahhh....

my mind is totaly cconfused with 5 PERIODS OF MATHS LESSON...argh....number kept appearing....going crazy....

ILY

no rubbish

2007-04-30T14:04:00.000+08:00

REAL ENTRIES PEOPLE!
since i wrote every entry an emotional n freak ones
gonna write it in e proper way.....

TODAY!

done my mother tongue exam. HARD!a little bit! . paper 1 is e most horrifying ones.....asked people around[DURING ASSEMBLY!DO NOT CHEAT!] what is e format of letter writing. but at last i have done dialog, such a waste of energy......there is more exams waiting for us.....ARGHHH!!!!![NOT ANGRY BUT FRUSTRATING!] hope that there is someone to teach me maths.....suck at it!!!! MY DAYS OF STUDYING ARE GOING CRAZY!!!!! my cousin's family at home....staying for a couple of days......NOT GOOD WITH KIDS!!!!!

MY DAYS OF HAPPINESS HAS CHANGE! WHY? REASONS:

1)BAD RELATIONSHIP WITH MY NEW FRIEND[DANGER DAN]
P.S SORRY FOR THE PAIN I HAVE CAUSE TO U!BAD MONTH!

2)STRESS CAUSED FROM THE EXAMS

3)NO PRIVACY!!!!!!! :[[

4)RELATIONSHIP WITH AFIQ BECOMES BAD!!!!!
P.S ITS BECOMING WORSE.LEADS TO?

5)EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS
P.S NEEDS TO SEE A THERAPIST

END OF MY UNHAPPINESS!!!!!!!

VACANCY: TUITION ME FOR MATHS!!!!!!!!

2007-04-28T20:18:00.000+08:00

THIS IS JUST NOT ENOUGH

i had lots of fun time together wif DEWI N ANDREA N HUI BIN sadly, hui bin have to went out with somebody else so she leaves early BOO...BOO...BOO...BOO still we had lots of fun time DEWI IS SO MINAH!!!!!!!SHE TOTALLY IS!!!!!OMG!!!!! ARGH...SHOCKING!!!! went to VIVO CITY!!!!!!!!! STILL FELT LIKE SOMTHIN IS MISSING IN MY HEART sad....but do not want my feelings to overcome me..... we saw lots of DAMN CUTE MATS too..... WOAH....WOAH...WOAH....WOAH

CHILLS

2007-04-27T17:25:00.000+08:00

I THOUGHT U WERE A DECENT GUY BUT U ARE JUZ ANOTHER ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!
FUCKER......INSENSITIVE......JERK...
WOMEN ARE FROM VENUS & MEN ARE FROM HELL

today is my first exam....
WHEE....WHEE....WHEE
today is english exam
DAMN DIFFICULT
but juz wish i pass wif flying colors

MESSAGE TO THE FUCKER:
I KNOW UR GURL IS A NO. PRIORITY BUT AREN'T UR FRENS IMPORTANT TOO!!!!!!!!!!

went to vivo wif dewi n hui bin.....
had lots of FUN TIME!!!!!!!!!
makes me release my stress rather than slitting myself.....
OOOOOOOOO:
eat TOPS....totally delicious....!!!!!!!!!

CONTINUE

2007-04-26T15:02:00.000+08:00

i don know if u miss me right now
wanted to forget you but tell me how
thinking about you,was like a habit to me
somehow i know that you are avoiding me
knowing my dirty little secret
that's not what i wanted
we talked for hours late at night
how could you not remember that it was yesterday
we talked to each other
sadly,he is such a MOTHER FUCKER
he was always with me to put my sorrows away
now he just makes it come back

2007-04-24T15:11:00.000+08:00

written a poem.....so this is my 1st stanza[paragraph]
there is a contuniation but gonna type it another time.....

its a mistake
loving you was a mistake
i hate you now
cause you have made a foul
to kept me waiting at MACS
that has food that contain fats
got a dissappointed message
"i'm sorry but my gurl wants to meet me"
i know it was wrong to like this guy
although he is not quite cute nor handsome to say
but he makes my heart beats everyday
wonder he know what was inside me
don want to think about it cause its makin me crazy
argh.....feeling so stress oh how its gonna be
my blood flow
its just a dissappointment if the answer is no
a sense of sadness conquers my heart
lies are gonna be over as my heart stop

CONTINUE..........

e world is turning upside down

2007-04-20T21:07:00.000+08:00

BORED
bored
BORED
bored
BORED

juz got a shocking news
e world is on its way to turn upside down
can't believe the person tat u are starting to know is a ......
OMG!
its for me to know
for u to find out
MUA...HA....HA...HA
goin crazy with e evil laughing
:)

i open my heart to u
i don myself to
but what could i do
when we are meant to be

heart in pain

2007-04-17T17:14:00.000+08:00

y do i even bother thinking bout us....
its a pain in the ass

no matter what you do
don forget me
for what you do
is what i love
although sometimes you get on my nerves
never forget me cause people say we are like lovers
it makes me think
will we be one?
cause you are like a fink
which make me hate myself
you have the love of your life
when me and my hateful life
i may not be pretty
but i also don't need your pity
when will i ever see
that you are not the one for me

poem is my game

2007-04-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

pain teach me to be strong
cause it is not wrong
to be in town
doing suicide when i'm down
it just won't go away
i feel like an idiot
for what i do
its not the best for me too
tears roll down my cheek
his hand swept it away
whispers to me,"i will never leave u now"
trying to make me stop
hug me n says,"i'm gonna make it end and love you till the end for you are always my wannabe"

I'M STILL A VIRGIN

2007-04-12T17:52:00.000+08:00

juz got back from skool.....
ate a island creamery.....
YUMYUMYUM........

crowded of ACS guys n other skools......
saw some hot guys.....
muah...ha...ha...ha

still waiting 4 my sis....
GO SHOPPING.....
its her salary day today.......
YAY!
although not a fan of shopping.....but clothes n accessories rocks my world....
once a fashion lover,always be fashion lover

i'm totally bored like death at home....

something interesting happen yeaterday......
the luck is with me cause wat was guessed in my class...was true
onli tat i was not raped.....

someone special gave me a surprised....
finally went to sentosa with him n frens last night....
he is always busy wif his studies....
so i didn't talk to him 4 couple of days.....he finally missed me
hahahaha......i'm a total suicide
last night was e greatest......do somethin mysterious together....
I'M STILL A VIRGIN
have lots of fun together too......
MUZ DO SOMETHIN CRAZY 4 AWHILE......
END OF MY SADNESS.....

he is not a lover nor an admirer but a fren

2007-04-11T21:37:00.000+08:00

juz browsing through my fren's blog....
read some of his entries
he seems to avoid me
he doesn't seems to notice tat e friendship between us is very valuable

i felt so drifted away
cause he is e one who makes me happie everyday n looking forward to each day

although we never met
but it really makes me realise he is the closest guy i've known

shares my problems with him
help me bring my confidence back to life

mayb i'm juz a gurl tat is.....[i dunno]

it makes me felt disappointed.....
mayb we are juz not supposed to be friends......

FEELIN SO STRESS RITE NOW......argh.....
ONE PROBLEMS LEADS TO ANOTHER.......
Y DO I EVEN BOTHER KNOWING HIM MORE......TALK TO HIM
FEEL SO STUPID......

quotes

2007-04-08T13:47:00.000+08:00

discovered some interesting quotes....from famous people...

"Genius is born--not paid"
Oscar Wilde

"Fashion is a form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to alter it every six months"
Oscar Wilde

"Its not true that life is one damn thing after another,its one damn thing over and over"
Edna St. Vincent Millay

the quotes are unique isn't it......

pissed

2007-04-07T16:18:00.000+08:00

i'm very pissed right now felt like killng tis guy
can't take anymore of e anger felt like wanting to explode one day i thought he was a decent guy but
today i finally who he is when i read his blog
i can't believe of trusting him hope tat he will read my blog n

he will someday understand my feelings
felt like a rubbish bin
was thrown away when it is full of lies inside it

uncontrollabe lonliness

2007-04-07T00:07:00.000+08:00

walking at Orchard with my friends.....
looking people around us.....
making crazy stuffs......

when in my head

thinking bout how does life works....
wonder everything around us.....
looking at the amazing views in Singapore......
felt lucky to be alive....
although everything tat i wanted doesn't go everything i planned.....

in my heart

feeling lonely than others.....
sadness inside my heart has overcome me.....
to be feared of who i am......
not being myself.....
change who i was....

truth of who i was then

not a enthusiastic person
not pretty
not fashionable
lonely
left out
sad
dreams don come true
no more hopes 4 myself being a better person

everything i was now....its not what i wanted
have to do it 4 e sake of my friends so that they would not be sad
wish sometimes tat i would not exist
its a burden...to c who i love is being taken away from my heart
sorrow is a part of my life
no happiness in my fake life

nothing much to do

2007-04-06T09:35:00.000+08:00

i'm bored to death rite now....
in skool....
doin nothing.....
ARGH....but still can take pics in my class...
hehehehehe....muah...ha...ha...ha
i'm suppose to do my project.....
but FUCKING LAZY.....
muah...muah....muah....
i know i'm lame k.....

GUMgum

never give up on wad u do....

naughtiness inside me

2007-04-06T09:33:00.000+08:00

i juz skip my SYF dance lesson......
i'm very naughty rite?
hehehehe.......
alwayz being mean to e teachers.......
:X
i'm in the skool rite now......
not suppose 2 use e computer for fun but who cares.......
love to break skool rules.......
no poems tdy guys.....
i know u love my poems......
HAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!
i'm so ego.......
juz kiddin.....
no mood 4 poems tdy......

GUMgum

anger management

2007-04-06T09:16:00.000+08:00

i'm fucking irritated with my frens......
their promised are a lie......
i will never wanna believed them anymore......

why am i FUCKING EMOTIONAL????!!!!!!

watever it is.....
this day is e worst day of my life.....
ppl are not free......
my fren got scolded......
n
i layered my hair tat it is too short 4 me to tie it.....
ARGHH.........
I'M FUCKING FRUSTRATED...........

sentimental me

2007-04-06T09:11:00.000+08:00

felt bored....n....wrote poem...nothin else to do...take pics too..:) CAMWHORE here it goes.... setiap hari aku menghitung untuk menatap wajahmu setiap hari juga aku berasa kosong di hati yang suci ini aku menuggu di situ untuk menumui mu malangnya kahadiran yang aku tunggu tidak tiba jua aku bertanya hatiku kalau ini adalah satu takdir takdir untuk tidak bersama kasihku takdir untuk menyakiti hati aku ni takdir untuk ditinggalkan apapun jua takdir yang ditentukan aku akan menerima dengan hati terbuka the end so people who wants to know wat this poem means.....ask ur malay friends...i'm sure they knows it..... ENJOY YOUR WEEEKENDS!!!!!!!!

lost

2007-04-06T09:06:00.000+08:00

have u ever wonder if there's something missing in ur heart.....
thinking tat everything in ur life went perfectly....
wen its actually not.....
suddenly a stranger came......
its the piece tat is always missing.....

this is not what happen to me actually.......
juz a feeling that was always trapped inside........
finally i have let it out.....

felt my life was juz a lie.....
waiting for someone tat don even knows i exist......

messsage:please tell ur true feelings to this person......don wait forever.....its painful to wait.......u may not know if the person likes u too.....
the answer mayb yes or no......juz receive it honestly although it hurts.......